oh you know. same shit. different day.

I'm realizing more and more every day that i can't stand who i am. i see all of these seemingly effortlessly beautful girl who have everything so easily. it makes me wonder how they do it. they dont seem to ever have a weak moment. at least they don't let them ever show. i hope to learn this grace and or trick. i want to change every thing. i just need to figure out where to start.